Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Saturday, May 21, 2011
First Hour in the Morning
I wake up in the morning
I see you peacefully lying next to me
I watch your soft tiny lips
I feel the heat of your body
I'm mesmerized by the rise and fall of your masculine chest...
And then your dough eyes are open...
suddenly you whisper my name...
and in a sophisticated manner...
you caress me and eventually
embraced me in a distinct way...
and all I can think of is being greatful
for having you beside me...
Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Copyright ©2008 Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
FriendS
We used to be with each other...
You used to be my crying shoulder...
You used to hold my hand when I'm in the middle of confusion...
You used to embrace me when I'm at the peak of my emotion...
In return all I can do was to be there for you...
I turned everything nice and new...
I made you believe that you were great in everything...
I made you realize that a wonderful future for us is coming...
But now I'm in a new place...
It's a place where I can't even have a glimpse of your face...
It's been a rough journey...
And I've realized without you I can never be HAPPY...
Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Copyright ©2008 Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Memories...They Made me a Better Me
Reaching out through my hour glass
Something made me realized
That time fleats so fast
It's so extraordinary
But for a minute
I was fascinated to see my eyes as it gets a little teary...
How I wished I was able to hold you tight...
How I wish I shouted
I'll be here for you with all my might!
I wish I did hug you for the last time...
and I wish I was able to let down my guards for awhile...
Now All I have is a memory of you ...
How you held me tight...
How you made me laugh...
and of course how you always made me cry...
Thank you for the memories...
I wont forget how you made me a better "me"...
Yes, Thank you for making me a better me...
Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Copyright ©2008 Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
My Deepest Hour
I weep at my darkest hour
I cried until I slumber
I shiver in that one cold weary night
I shouted yet no one came in sight
I felt so alone and lonely
I never realized that life can be so empty
Please hear my cries!
Please listen to my deep sighs!
I feel so lost in my own agony
In the empty space I shout for help so desperately!
And with teary eyes
There you were and right there I knew there are no more lies...
Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Copyright ©2008 Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Sad Thoughts
I never felt so lost...
I tried so hard to hold on...
But I guess everything is just too loose...
And as I look around I've realize that I'm alone...
I weep
I shiver
I've been hurt so deep
I wish life could be better...
I wish I have been smarter...
Sometimes being wise matter...
Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Copyright ©2008 Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Unhappy
My life at this point is a disappointing
I don't know how But I feel so lost
I feel like my story is
boring and never ending
I feel like loosing
every magnificent part of me
I feel like a voracious eater
Who don't have anything to
devour but my own holpless inanimate deams...
I just love to dream...
But I pity my self for not
being able to make those dreams come true...
My rainy clouds are here again...
My sunrise is nowhere to be found...
I'm tired of dreaming...
I'm even more tired of trying...
I'm just an unhappy soul...
Who don't really know
the reason behind this depressed feeling...
Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Copyright ©2008 Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
At Nine in the Morning
I just opened my eyes
I just got up from bed
I just had my breakfast
I just had a bath
I just had my well pressed clothes on
And I wonder, what's next?
Do I have something out there that's waiting for me?
Will it just be another day?
Will I just wait for this day to pass by again?
Sometimes it's so sad for you not to
Know where to go or what to do
But I just know today at six in the evening
My own sun will be shining
Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Copyright ©2008 Maribeth Ancheta Pinzon
Pansamantala...
Pansamantala ako'y sumasabay sa agos ng alon...Hindi ko man lubos maisip subalit totoo...Minsan ang tao maraming plano sa buhay..Kaya ang bawat landas pilit sinusubukang tahakin...Ang iba milagrong nagtatagumpay...Ang iba naman pilit tinatahak ang daang alam nila ay tama.
Minsan ako'y nasisiyanahan...Minsan naman napakaraming bagay ang siyang bumabagabag sa akin...PIlit kong inaabot kung ano ang nandun...Maraming beses na masasabi kong minsan sa aking buhay narating ko ang nais kong marating...Subalit mahirap pala ang mag-umpisa ulit..
Sana marating ko na ang dulo ng bahaghari...at sana sa lugar na iyon makita ko na nga ang aking hinahanap...
Pero pansamantala...ako'y masaya...
Sana...sana...malapit na... :-D
Minsan ako'y nasisiyanahan...Minsan naman napakaraming bagay ang siyang bumabagabag sa akin...PIlit kong inaabot kung ano ang nandun...Maraming beses na masasabi kong minsan sa aking buhay narating ko ang nais kong marating...Subalit mahirap pala ang mag-umpisa ulit..
Sana marating ko na ang dulo ng bahaghari...at sana sa lugar na iyon makita ko na nga ang aking hinahanap...
Pero pansamantala...ako'y masaya...
Sana...sana...malapit na... :-D
Listening...Writing...and Humming
I love to write whenever I am in my senti mode...I love this new friendster account because I know that only a few people can read my inner thoughts...
I'm finally home...I'm hearing my mom's familiar laughter...I'm able to taste my dad's old and new recipies...I'm enjoying every sweet little talks that I and my sister have...and of course I'm spending the rest of my life with my chubby and cute baba boo...:-D
I can"t find the right words to exactly describe how I feel...I'm savoring every microsecond...I'm embracing every precious memory...and I can't thank the Lord enough for hearing my prayers...
The only missing piece now is my professional growth...But I'm getting there somehow...
Come join me as I start a whole new world in CA San Jose...
I'm living at the moment...and loving every single part of it...
I'm finally home...I'm hearing my mom's familiar laughter...I'm able to taste my dad's old and new recipies...I'm enjoying every sweet little talks that I and my sister have...and of course I'm spending the rest of my life with my chubby and cute baba boo...:-D
I can"t find the right words to exactly describe how I feel...I'm savoring every microsecond...I'm embracing every precious memory...and I can't thank the Lord enough for hearing my prayers...
The only missing piece now is my professional growth...But I'm getting there somehow...
Come join me as I start a whole new world in CA San Jose...
I'm living at the moment...and loving every single part of it...
Mga Lumang Litrato
Minsan naisip ko bakit ganun? Minsan nakakaaliw...minsan nakakalungkot...minsan sobrang nakakabagot...
Minsan naisip ko ang bilis ng araw...Kamakailan lang ang paligid ay puno ng kulay...Subalit bakit ganun...tila napakabilis ng lahat...parang isang araw na nagdadaan ng sobrang bilis...animo'y alikabok na tinangay ng hangin...
Minsan tila gusto ko munang lasapin ang bawat sandali...Maupo sa isang silid at pagmasdan ang kagandahan ng bawat minuto na siyang tatambad sa aking harapan...
Minsan naisip ko ...bakit ganun...ang buhay parang isang awitin...Masarap pakinggan...masarap indakan...subalit sa huli ang hirap kalimutan...
Ngayon aking natanaw ang mga lumang litrato...Lahat maganda sa aking paningin...Kulang na lang marinig ko ang mga halakhak...ang bawat expresion ng mukha na nagpapahiwatag na ang buhay maikli subalit masaya...
Bakit ganun...ang bilis ng panahon...parang kailan lang isa lamang akong uhugin na musmus...Walang hinanakit sa mundo...Puno ng saya at walang kapagurang tawa...Subalit bakit ganun...ngayon ako'y mejo may edad na...ang buhay pala'y hindi lamang napupunan ng puro ngiti at tawanan...dati ang paborito kong tanong, "bakit"...subalit nitong mga nagdaang panahon ang aking bukang bibig ay naging , "papano"...
Sa iyong palagay may patutunguhan ba lahat ng nasasabi ko? Sa iyong palagay ang bawat minsan ko ba'y katumbas ng salitang "sana"...
Marahil tama ka...
Ako ba'y nagsesentimiento dahil sa mga lumang litrato?...Siguro...O baka naman naiisip ko lamang na sana ang ang buhay pwedeng irewind...pweding i-stop...at pwedeng i fast forward...
Subalit...alam mo...masaya ako...bakit? sa kadahilang ang bawat litrato sa akin ay may significo...maging black and white man eto o colored...ang bawat larawan ay naging malaking bahagi ng aking buhay...Hindi ko man nakunan ang tunog ng bawat halakhak at hiyaw...subalit natitiyak ko...sa bawat makulay na papel...naiukit sa aking memoriya ang bawat lugar...kwento...kaibigan...kapatid...at simpleng pagkakataon na masasabi ko na sa buhay na ito...ako'y nasisiyahan na naging bahagi kayo ng simple at makulay kong mundo...
Salamat sa mga LITRATO!!!
Minsan naisip ko ang bilis ng araw...Kamakailan lang ang paligid ay puno ng kulay...Subalit bakit ganun...tila napakabilis ng lahat...parang isang araw na nagdadaan ng sobrang bilis...animo'y alikabok na tinangay ng hangin...
Minsan tila gusto ko munang lasapin ang bawat sandali...Maupo sa isang silid at pagmasdan ang kagandahan ng bawat minuto na siyang tatambad sa aking harapan...
Minsan naisip ko ...bakit ganun...ang buhay parang isang awitin...Masarap pakinggan...masarap indakan...subalit sa huli ang hirap kalimutan...
Ngayon aking natanaw ang mga lumang litrato...Lahat maganda sa aking paningin...Kulang na lang marinig ko ang mga halakhak...ang bawat expresion ng mukha na nagpapahiwatag na ang buhay maikli subalit masaya...
Bakit ganun...ang bilis ng panahon...parang kailan lang isa lamang akong uhugin na musmus...Walang hinanakit sa mundo...Puno ng saya at walang kapagurang tawa...Subalit bakit ganun...ngayon ako'y mejo may edad na...ang buhay pala'y hindi lamang napupunan ng puro ngiti at tawanan...dati ang paborito kong tanong, "bakit"...subalit nitong mga nagdaang panahon ang aking bukang bibig ay naging , "papano"...
Sa iyong palagay may patutunguhan ba lahat ng nasasabi ko? Sa iyong palagay ang bawat minsan ko ba'y katumbas ng salitang "sana"...
Marahil tama ka...
Ako ba'y nagsesentimiento dahil sa mga lumang litrato?...Siguro...O baka naman naiisip ko lamang na sana ang ang buhay pwedeng irewind...pweding i-stop...at pwedeng i fast forward...
Subalit...alam mo...masaya ako...bakit? sa kadahilang ang bawat litrato sa akin ay may significo...maging black and white man eto o colored...ang bawat larawan ay naging malaking bahagi ng aking buhay...Hindi ko man nakunan ang tunog ng bawat halakhak at hiyaw...subalit natitiyak ko...sa bawat makulay na papel...naiukit sa aking memoriya ang bawat lugar...kwento...kaibigan...kapatid...at simpleng pagkakataon na masasabi ko na sa buhay na ito...ako'y nasisiyahan na naging bahagi kayo ng simple at makulay kong mundo...
Salamat sa mga LITRATO!!!
Nagsesenti...
baket ganun...nakikisabay ka sa kalungkutan ng ibang tao...marahil seasonal depression lang ito...sana magsummer na para hindi malungkot ang palagid at para hindi rin maging malungkot ang lahat...hay buhay nga naman...minsan masaya...minsan malungkot...pero gayun pa man...sa iba kelangan mo ipakita ang iyong ngiti...kailangang ibahagi ang bawat halakhak...at pagnag-iisa ka na...dun sa isang silid...pwede ka nang umiyak...at mangarap na sana...sana...sana sa iyong sarili maibahagi mo ang totoong saya...at masambit mo na MAGANDA NGA TALAGA ANG BUHAY!!!...
It's just another blah...blah...blah moment....
It's 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep...I've watched how to lose a guy in 10 days for 2 hours and yet I can't sleep...I've read a bunch of stuff over the teen vogue magazine and still I can't sleep...I've heard my stomach growling I tried to have an after midnight snack, brush my teeth, watch some goofy late night shows and still I can't sleep...
I'm...pathetically... awfully "SAD"...It's not the same anymore...We used to have exciting moments together...I used to love looking into your gorgeous eyes...I used to watch every sexy movement of your lips...I used to laugh at your funny and spooky jokes...We used to have fun under the sheets...The new styles...all the moaning...and the role playing...what happened to all those exciting things that we used to have in common...
Now sometimes I think that I barely know you...We barely gaze at each other...We don't share each other's "special" moments anymore...Whenever I look at those gorgeous eyes now a days I see you looking at me-- as if "I am just a girl." Now a days, I am just a girl who makes it a point that your uniforms are all well pressed and tidy while you take your morning shower...Now I'm just a girl who makes sure that you have your lunch box ready before you could give me a quick kiss and off you go...I'm just this girl who can fix you dinner when you get home...and the girl who can just lay next to you while you toss and turn on the wee hours...
I always dreamt of happy endings...I never had my dream wedding...I used to dream of a guy who can sweep me off my feet just like that...My prince at the end of the church ailse who awaits me and my very long entourage...With a long white vail on...with those pure white stilletos...and of course the white big...bold...and wavy ballgown that makes every girl envious and every guy turn their heads and gasps as I walk down the aisle...
I always dreamt of having someone to give my sweet kisses and tight hugs in the early morning wishing that that very moment will never end...I wish to gaze into your eyes while you gaze into mine as we share our breakfast together...I wish to be this sweet married woman that you can come home every afternoon wherein we can talk about all in a days work with all those exciting moments...Where you can hug me tightly whenever you feel that work is just a pain in the butt...Where we can always go out and celebrate whenever you're on cloud nine just because of one of the most appreciative comments that you had from a lovely patient who made your day...I wanna be the wife that you can come home to in the late afternoons wherein we can just sit next to each other, watch a good show...laugh...and talk about it...
I WANT TO LAUGH AGAIN LIKE I USED TO...I WANT TO BE THE SAME OLD SMART FUNNY GIRL THAT I WAS BEFORE I MET YOU...when I met you...tinanggal mo na yun eh...I LOST ME...but I had you...
and now...I'm not saying that I regret having been into this...But I just want to know how will I be this "complete" little package in your life ...where you can turn your back at everything and consider a world where the word, "IT'S JUST YOU AND ME BABY" matters...When will I stop pleasing you...When will you ever notice me...When will you say that everything is "PERFECT" and not just everything is just "ok"...
When will I say that I'm now contented...When will I say that everything's alright...When will I stop whinning...and when will I stop trying...
I'm getting tired too...waiting for you to come to bed next to me while you can have all night playing with those STUPID COMPUTER GAMES...when will you start to know me instead where you can read my thoughts to know how I exactly feel...
At some point...I really don't know you...and perhaps you really don't know me after all...
It's just sad to say that in your world I can never be your perfect package...I can never ever make you happy 100%...I'll always be a quarter in your life that fills in this itsy...bitsy...space...
sigh! I wish that life didn't have to be so complicated...
I'm...pathetically... awfully "SAD"...It's not the same anymore...We used to have exciting moments together...I used to love looking into your gorgeous eyes...I used to watch every sexy movement of your lips...I used to laugh at your funny and spooky jokes...We used to have fun under the sheets...The new styles...all the moaning...and the role playing...what happened to all those exciting things that we used to have in common...
Now sometimes I think that I barely know you...We barely gaze at each other...We don't share each other's "special" moments anymore...Whenever I look at those gorgeous eyes now a days I see you looking at me-- as if "I am just a girl." Now a days, I am just a girl who makes it a point that your uniforms are all well pressed and tidy while you take your morning shower...Now I'm just a girl who makes sure that you have your lunch box ready before you could give me a quick kiss and off you go...I'm just this girl who can fix you dinner when you get home...and the girl who can just lay next to you while you toss and turn on the wee hours...
I always dreamt of happy endings...I never had my dream wedding...I used to dream of a guy who can sweep me off my feet just like that...My prince at the end of the church ailse who awaits me and my very long entourage...With a long white vail on...with those pure white stilletos...and of course the white big...bold...and wavy ballgown that makes every girl envious and every guy turn their heads and gasps as I walk down the aisle...
I always dreamt of having someone to give my sweet kisses and tight hugs in the early morning wishing that that very moment will never end...I wish to gaze into your eyes while you gaze into mine as we share our breakfast together...I wish to be this sweet married woman that you can come home every afternoon wherein we can talk about all in a days work with all those exciting moments...Where you can hug me tightly whenever you feel that work is just a pain in the butt...Where we can always go out and celebrate whenever you're on cloud nine just because of one of the most appreciative comments that you had from a lovely patient who made your day...I wanna be the wife that you can come home to in the late afternoons wherein we can just sit next to each other, watch a good show...laugh...and talk about it...
I WANT TO LAUGH AGAIN LIKE I USED TO...I WANT TO BE THE SAME OLD SMART FUNNY GIRL THAT I WAS BEFORE I MET YOU...when I met you...tinanggal mo na yun eh...I LOST ME...but I had you...
and now...I'm not saying that I regret having been into this...But I just want to know how will I be this "complete" little package in your life ...where you can turn your back at everything and consider a world where the word, "IT'S JUST YOU AND ME BABY" matters...When will I stop pleasing you...When will you ever notice me...When will you say that everything is "PERFECT" and not just everything is just "ok"...
When will I say that I'm now contented...When will I say that everything's alright...When will I stop whinning...and when will I stop trying...
I'm getting tired too...waiting for you to come to bed next to me while you can have all night playing with those STUPID COMPUTER GAMES...when will you start to know me instead where you can read my thoughts to know how I exactly feel...
At some point...I really don't know you...and perhaps you really don't know me after all...
It's just sad to say that in your world I can never be your perfect package...I can never ever make you happy 100%...I'll always be a quarter in your life that fills in this itsy...bitsy...space...
sigh! I wish that life didn't have to be so complicated...
Despite of all the Odds...
But despite of it all I must say that you're my life...
I regret having those bad temper...I hate myself for being so immature...for being so self-centered at one point...
I hate to admit but I must say...I'm so sorry for being just simply me...
Despite of it all thank you for loving me...
I regret having those bad temper...I hate myself for being so immature...for being so self-centered at one point...
I hate to admit but I must say...I'm so sorry for being just simply me...
Despite of it all thank you for loving me...
A Simple Story
She met him at a very odd day...He was in his white shorts...and with his blue and white shirt...He had this shiny hair...Well trimmed and she thinks that it has a mind of its own...and that was 15 years ago...
The innocent exchanges of shy glances...Those smiles...Those old styles of exchanging letters inserted in their notebooks...Those sweet talks...the petit quarrels...the one million times break-ups...the "muling ibalak" moments...the text messages...the long, innocent and very interesting talks...suddenly came rushing down from her memory lane...
She smiles...She remembers her college days where she had this long distance love affair...She crinckles her nose and notes how she'd break each innocent guys' hearts, for she'd always manage to find her way back home to the person who really has her heart...
For ages he'd wondered want went wrong when he had been the "perfect boyfriend" for the entire relationship...She just weeps and cries and went away without explaining a single thing...
...and the last leaves of that old jackfruit from their backyard fell...and they were'nt aware that it was their last chance to try and work on their love affair...soon the right guy came along...and Mr. Perfect was left again...and again...
She often wondered still...what if...what couldv'e..and what should've...It's just so sad that the two of them were'nt able to set the right tone...for the right time...
It was a month before her wedding when they saw each other again...One had to show a smile...While the other just looked at her with a sigh...they didn't talk for they couldn't find the right words...Instead they smiled and joined in to celebrate with their friends' wedding...It was a very awkward moment...The food was good...The pictures turned out nice...and everybody seemed to be happy...except for these two lunatic people...too proud to eat their pride...
She waited for him to call...She waited for him to utter the first few words...But instead she waited in vain...It was his turn to wait at the moment...he made the first move for zillions of times...and now it was her turn to do the first move...
A couple of days before her wedding...she sent him a text message...and then he replied...She waited for him to say not to proceed with the exchanges of vows...But he didn't...She cried...and cried...and cried...
She got drunk the night before her wedding...Mr. Right and the bride to be had a big fight...She decided to leave home and think...think for 8 more hours just to make sure that this was what she wanted...and that this was the right thing to do...
The only thing that came to her mind we're the words..."He loves me...and I love him..." He's different...He was controlling...possessive...and as childish as she was...he sacriced a lot for her...he gave up his job...he gave his life for her...and he was ready to do anything for her sake...on the other hand Mr. Perfect has his life planned ahead...she wasn't in it not until he settles' down at the age of 28...He'll have everything perfectly planned...but he'll have her when the time is so damn right...
...and then came the final 2 hours...No messages...No call...She left her cellphone at home...Maybe for her to ponder on this big decision...She opened her eyes at 7:45 in the morning...It wasn't a dream...and she had to say goodbye to the people who gave her a room for the night...there will be a wedding at 10...Her eyes were swollen...She had acetone breath...Her head was pounding hard...But she was able to make up her mind...
And so at 8 am...She went home...had her gown ready...she had two teaspoon fulls of breakfast...and Mr. Right came infront of her door...He hugged her tightly...and with a tear in his eyes, he just uttered the words, "I'm glad that you're safe"...She just smiled...held him tight and said, " I'll see you there at 10 am sharp...."
She took a bath...and organized everything that she needed...Her sister got dress and so was a dear friend...They went to have their hair and make-up done...Their dear friend tried hard to make it on time...Unfortunately the traffic was so heavy...Everybody was patiently waiting...and at exactly 10:45 the bride to be made it to their wedding...The place was enchanting...Everybody had a smile on their faces...and the groom to be was all smiles...The girl that he searched for-for almost 10 hours the night before is finally infront of him willing to promise to spend the rest of her life with him no matter what...
The march started...Their vows were sacredly exchanged...He gave her the symbol of his eternal love...and in return...She gave him hers...and a few minutes after the judge exclaimed that "YOU MAY NOW KISS THE BRIDE"...
Her bestfriend and the others awaits for the news...Did she got married? Or was the wedding canceled....Nobody knew not until after a few more days passed...
And then there it goes ...They met again...This time she was happy...and this time he doesn't look that happy...They talked...and everybody just watched...They talked...and then others didn't really mind...
And he started to text her...stating that he needs to tell her something...and they agreed to talk...to exchange wonderful ideas...share a good meal...and enlighten each other...This time both of them knew that they're happy...This time both of them knew that they'll still have a special part in their lives...
They may not have that chance to spend the rest of their lives together...but they're sure that they'll be special for each other...Not as lovers but as special friends...
...at least once in their lives...they had a story to tell...It made them laugh...It made them cry...It made them sad...and it made them happy...
Another chapter has ended...But it was a good part of their life story...
The innocent exchanges of shy glances...Those smiles...Those old styles of exchanging letters inserted in their notebooks...Those sweet talks...the petit quarrels...the one million times break-ups...the "muling ibalak" moments...the text messages...the long, innocent and very interesting talks...suddenly came rushing down from her memory lane...
She smiles...She remembers her college days where she had this long distance love affair...She crinckles her nose and notes how she'd break each innocent guys' hearts, for she'd always manage to find her way back home to the person who really has her heart...
For ages he'd wondered want went wrong when he had been the "perfect boyfriend" for the entire relationship...She just weeps and cries and went away without explaining a single thing...
...and the last leaves of that old jackfruit from their backyard fell...and they were'nt aware that it was their last chance to try and work on their love affair...soon the right guy came along...and Mr. Perfect was left again...and again...
She often wondered still...what if...what couldv'e..and what should've...It's just so sad that the two of them were'nt able to set the right tone...for the right time...
It was a month before her wedding when they saw each other again...One had to show a smile...While the other just looked at her with a sigh...they didn't talk for they couldn't find the right words...Instead they smiled and joined in to celebrate with their friends' wedding...It was a very awkward moment...The food was good...The pictures turned out nice...and everybody seemed to be happy...except for these two lunatic people...too proud to eat their pride...
She waited for him to call...She waited for him to utter the first few words...But instead she waited in vain...It was his turn to wait at the moment...he made the first move for zillions of times...and now it was her turn to do the first move...
A couple of days before her wedding...she sent him a text message...and then he replied...She waited for him to say not to proceed with the exchanges of vows...But he didn't...She cried...and cried...and cried...
She got drunk the night before her wedding...Mr. Right and the bride to be had a big fight...She decided to leave home and think...think for 8 more hours just to make sure that this was what she wanted...and that this was the right thing to do...
The only thing that came to her mind we're the words..."He loves me...and I love him..." He's different...He was controlling...possessive...and as childish as she was...he sacriced a lot for her...he gave up his job...he gave his life for her...and he was ready to do anything for her sake...on the other hand Mr. Perfect has his life planned ahead...she wasn't in it not until he settles' down at the age of 28...He'll have everything perfectly planned...but he'll have her when the time is so damn right...
...and then came the final 2 hours...No messages...No call...She left her cellphone at home...Maybe for her to ponder on this big decision...She opened her eyes at 7:45 in the morning...It wasn't a dream...and she had to say goodbye to the people who gave her a room for the night...there will be a wedding at 10...Her eyes were swollen...She had acetone breath...Her head was pounding hard...But she was able to make up her mind...
And so at 8 am...She went home...had her gown ready...she had two teaspoon fulls of breakfast...and Mr. Right came infront of her door...He hugged her tightly...and with a tear in his eyes, he just uttered the words, "I'm glad that you're safe"...She just smiled...held him tight and said, " I'll see you there at 10 am sharp...."
She took a bath...and organized everything that she needed...Her sister got dress and so was a dear friend...They went to have their hair and make-up done...Their dear friend tried hard to make it on time...Unfortunately the traffic was so heavy...Everybody was patiently waiting...and at exactly 10:45 the bride to be made it to their wedding...The place was enchanting...Everybody had a smile on their faces...and the groom to be was all smiles...The girl that he searched for-for almost 10 hours the night before is finally infront of him willing to promise to spend the rest of her life with him no matter what...
The march started...Their vows were sacredly exchanged...He gave her the symbol of his eternal love...and in return...She gave him hers...and a few minutes after the judge exclaimed that "YOU MAY NOW KISS THE BRIDE"...
Her bestfriend and the others awaits for the news...Did she got married? Or was the wedding canceled....Nobody knew not until after a few more days passed...
And then there it goes ...They met again...This time she was happy...and this time he doesn't look that happy...They talked...and everybody just watched...They talked...and then others didn't really mind...
And he started to text her...stating that he needs to tell her something...and they agreed to talk...to exchange wonderful ideas...share a good meal...and enlighten each other...This time both of them knew that they're happy...This time both of them knew that they'll still have a special part in their lives...
They may not have that chance to spend the rest of their lives together...but they're sure that they'll be special for each other...Not as lovers but as special friends...
...at least once in their lives...they had a story to tell...It made them laugh...It made them cry...It made them sad...and it made them happy...
Another chapter has ended...But it was a good part of their life story...
:-D
Minsan nakakatawa...Nagsusulat tayo sa tuwing nalulungkot tayo...Minsan naman sa sobrang tuwa natin nakakapagsulat din tayo...Subalit bakit ganun pagmaayos na ang mga buhay-buhay natin mahirap nang ilarawan ang tuwang nararamdaman natin...
Mejo tumila na naman ang bagyo...Kanina parang mejo naaninag ko ang sikat ng araw...Mejo mahangin...Subalit ramdam ko pa rin ang nakakubling init...Init ng pagmamahal...Nangiti ako ngayon...at mejo natawa...hindi na ko naluluha...siguro bahagya na lang...
Tila lumipas na naman ang isang bagyo...Nag-iingat na lamang sa kaunting ambon na dulot ng nag-iimbot na panahon...
Hay! Ang buhay minsan nakakaloka...Minsan puno ng ligaya...Minsan naman sangdamakmak na buntong hininga...Ah basta ang alam ko...Sa tuwing ako'y malungkot...at sa tuwing ako'y masaya...mayroon akong isang maliit na lugar kung saan ko binubuhos ang lahat ng aking nadarama...Salamat sa naka-imbento ng friendster...Idol talaga kita!!!
p.s.
Ayan nangiti na naman ako...Beth tahan na...Kalimutan na ang lungkot na drama...Sa halip halika at tayo'y ngumiti at muling tumawa...
Sa May Bintana...
Kaninang umaga ako'y nakatanaw sa bintana...Pilit kong sinisinghot ang malinis na hangin...Malungkot ang langit...Malamig ang panahon...Nangiti ako ng bahagya...Bigla kong na-"miss" ang pagbuhos ng nyebe...:-(
Di ko lubusang maisip na magkakaroon din pala ng panahon na dadalawin ako ng mga lumang alaala ng Olney...Malungkot at minsan masaya ang lugar na iyon...Maraming beses na ako'y nag-iiiyak sa tuwa dala ng napakaraming kababayan natin na tila naging kapamilya ko na rin...Subalit napakaraming beses din na ako'y nasa isang sulok ng aming kwarto at pinipigil ang paghikbi at pilit ikinukubli ang mga singhot at luha na dala ng nalulumbay na palagid...
Marami akong natutunan sa lugar na iyon...Ako'y tinuruan ng lugar na iyon na magbigay...makinig...at magmahal...Tinuruan din ako ng lugar na iyon na ngumiti...at tumawa...Namimiss ko na ang mga huni ng mga ibon...Di ko na rin naririnig ang maingay na pagbati ng mga gansa...Di ko na rin matanaw ang malaking puno sa tapat ng munting bintana na laging nagdudulot sa akin ng bagong sigla...
Marami akong pilit kinalumutan sa lugar na iyon...Mga kaibigan na nagdulot ng bagong kulay sa aking bagong mundo...MInsan bakit ganun...Nagkakamali tayo sa pagpili ng mga taong iiwanan...Madalas nagpapadala tayo sa ating mga emosyon...Minsan nagpapadala tayo sa galit na dulot ng mga "kwento" na hindi natin alam kung makatotohanan o hindi...Minsan bigla na lamang tayong nag-iiwan ng puwang sa mga buhay ng mga taong nagbigay sa atin ng rason upang humalakhak muli...Napakahirap banggitin ang mga katagang.."I'm sori...."Kung nababasa sana nila ang bawat katagang nais kong sambitin...--maiintindihan kaya nila ako...mababalik ko pa kaya ng mga halakhak na minsan ay aking binawi... :-(
Minsan ang hirap aminin na ika'y nagkamali...
Naniniwala ako magkikita-kita pa rin tayo...at pagdating sa panahong iyon sana pag tinapunan ko kayo ng aking matatamis na ngiti...maibahagi kaya ninyo ulit ang mga halakhak na minsan ay nagbigay ng saysay sa aking malatelenovelang buhay... :-(
Di ko lubusang maisip na magkakaroon din pala ng panahon na dadalawin ako ng mga lumang alaala ng Olney...Malungkot at minsan masaya ang lugar na iyon...Maraming beses na ako'y nag-iiiyak sa tuwa dala ng napakaraming kababayan natin na tila naging kapamilya ko na rin...Subalit napakaraming beses din na ako'y nasa isang sulok ng aming kwarto at pinipigil ang paghikbi at pilit ikinukubli ang mga singhot at luha na dala ng nalulumbay na palagid...
Marami akong natutunan sa lugar na iyon...Ako'y tinuruan ng lugar na iyon na magbigay...makinig...at magmahal...Tinuruan din ako ng lugar na iyon na ngumiti...at tumawa...Namimiss ko na ang mga huni ng mga ibon...Di ko na rin naririnig ang maingay na pagbati ng mga gansa...Di ko na rin matanaw ang malaking puno sa tapat ng munting bintana na laging nagdudulot sa akin ng bagong sigla...
Marami akong pilit kinalumutan sa lugar na iyon...Mga kaibigan na nagdulot ng bagong kulay sa aking bagong mundo...MInsan bakit ganun...Nagkakamali tayo sa pagpili ng mga taong iiwanan...Madalas nagpapadala tayo sa ating mga emosyon...Minsan nagpapadala tayo sa galit na dulot ng mga "kwento" na hindi natin alam kung makatotohanan o hindi...Minsan bigla na lamang tayong nag-iiwan ng puwang sa mga buhay ng mga taong nagbigay sa atin ng rason upang humalakhak muli...Napakahirap banggitin ang mga katagang.."I'm sori...."Kung nababasa sana nila ang bawat katagang nais kong sambitin...--maiintindihan kaya nila ako...mababalik ko pa kaya ng mga halakhak na minsan ay aking binawi... :-(
Minsan ang hirap aminin na ika'y nagkamali...
Naniniwala ako magkikita-kita pa rin tayo...at pagdating sa panahong iyon sana pag tinapunan ko kayo ng aking matatamis na ngiti...maibahagi kaya ninyo ulit ang mga halakhak na minsan ay nagbigay ng saysay sa aking malatelenovelang buhay... :-(
2009...here i come...
It's been a busy...busy...busy...busy....month...Suddenly there are a lot of things that's going on with my life...No more dull moments I guess...but instead of indulging myself with boredom... there's just tons of things to do...that now I tend to forget to enjoy "my all by myself moment"...
Life just starts unexpectedly...sigh! i miss my blog moments though...
Maiba tayo, just recently I don't know who was able to access my blog that it had a 1000 + comments ofadvertisement of pain relievers...kainis....even the comments that I love to read over and over again have been deleted...
Oh well...ganyan lang po talaga ang life...sometimes you win...sometimes you don't...but the good thing is you don't get to laugh and smile all the time...who knows you might end up with more of those unwanted "moments"...ingat lang po kung minsan masakit ang balik ng mga bato... :-D
Life just starts unexpectedly...sigh! i miss my blog moments though...
Maiba tayo, just recently I don't know who was able to access my blog that it had a 1000 + comments ofadvertisement of pain relievers...kainis....even the comments that I love to read over and over again have been deleted...
Oh well...ganyan lang po talaga ang life...sometimes you win...sometimes you don't...but the good thing is you don't get to laugh and smile all the time...who knows you might end up with more of those unwanted "moments"...ingat lang po kung minsan masakit ang balik ng mga bato... :-D
Sigh!?!
...and I'm BACK!!!
I just simply miss writing...the words...the emotions...and the imagination...
Now I admit, I'm having this mix emotions...Well I'm sad...and I'm happy...I'm excited...but at the same time I'm really worried...But I know though that this is what she's been aiming for--for a very long time...This is what's good for her...( I just worry too much sometimes...) I tend to forget that she's all grown-up and that she's strong enough to face the world...
You'll be able to make it out there...You're stronger...smarter and (masakit mang aminin--hehehe) PRETTIER THAN ME... :-D ... Just always remember that you'll always be ate's little girl...I love you...I'll always be here for you...no matter what....
nagsesenti na naman,
betchang... :-D
I just simply miss writing...the words...the emotions...and the imagination...
Now I admit, I'm having this mix emotions...Well I'm sad...and I'm happy...I'm excited...but at the same time I'm really worried...But I know though that this is what she's been aiming for--for a very long time...This is what's good for her...( I just worry too much sometimes...) I tend to forget that she's all grown-up and that she's strong enough to face the world...
You'll be able to make it out there...You're stronger...smarter and (masakit mang aminin--hehehe) PRETTIER THAN ME... :-D ... Just always remember that you'll always be ate's little girl...I love you...I'll always be here for you...no matter what....
nagsesenti na naman,
betchang... :-D
Memory Lane....
I really love to open up my old files...I laugh at my old pictures and often times I simply sit there in silence remembering the story behind the scene...I really like the excitement that I often feel whenever I read some of my 2 decade old letters from dear friends and YOU KNOW WHO...hehehe...There are times when I open up some pages of my worn out diaries and I simply smile secretly allowing those words to take me through time...
The past is just too good to forget...The childhood memories (first crush)...my elementary years(first kilig to the bones moments)... highschool life (first love)...college ( first kiss)...and finally my young adulthood...( wherein I had a taste of the life that I've always wanted)...
It's just wonderful that I can always go back to my safe place once in awhile...:-D...wherein I can smile...I can laugh and I can shed some tears all by myself...
Reality check: well I'm here and I'm living with my "NOW" experiences...I just have to make the most out of it so I can add these wonderful days to my memory lane files...:-D
nagpapaksenti na naman,
BETCHANG :::::::::
The past is just too good to forget...The childhood memories (first crush)...my elementary years(first kilig to the bones moments)... highschool life (first love)...college ( first kiss)...and finally my young adulthood...( wherein I had a taste of the life that I've always wanted)...
It's just wonderful that I can always go back to my safe place once in awhile...:-D...wherein I can smile...I can laugh and I can shed some tears all by myself...
Reality check: well I'm here and I'm living with my "NOW" experiences...I just have to make the most out of it so I can add these wonderful days to my memory lane files...:-D
nagpapaksenti na naman,
BETCHANG :::::::::
Sarah Geronimo Fever--I'm loving her voice...and I really like this Music Video...(kinikilig pa rin ako...jologs na kung jologs but I really like this
YOU CHANGE MY LIFE IN A MOMENT
The nights the sky was filled with clouds
My worried mind was filled with fear
I couldn't count all the lonely hours
Spent with memories and tears
I never thought i would see the day
When i could throw all my sorrow away
But then you came and you showed me the way
You have made all those times disappear
Chorus:
You changed my life in a moment
And i'll never be the same again
You changed my life in a moment
And it's hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone (is gone... is gone... is gone...)
I never thought that i could change
Could change so much in so many ways
I'm still surprised when i look in my mirror
To see that i still look the same
Chorus:
You changed my life in a moment
And i'll never be the same again
You changed my life in a moment
And it's hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone
(you changed my life in a moment)
You changed my life
(and i'll never be the same again)
I'll never be the same
You changed my life in a moment
And it's hard for me to understand
With the touch of your hand in a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone
(you changed my life in a moment)
Gone... gone...
In a moment in time
All my sorrow is gone...
Blogging again...
I don't know why I'm smiling today...No more tears...It's just this youthful feeling of knowing that somehow I'm living with my "here and now"...
I think I'm getting over my "past"...I'm beginning to appreciate what I'm suppose to cherish...I'm loving the breezy air of winter...I may not see the sun shining....I may be irritated with the weeping clouds...but hey I think I'm regaining the things that I once lost...Now I'm happy to say that I almost found myself...almost...and I'm getting there somehow...
Life is a group of happy and sad memories...It's a simple yet complicated story...
...ako lang at wala na pong iba....
nag-uumpisa na namang mangulit sa friendster,
Betchang :-D
I think I'm getting over my "past"...I'm beginning to appreciate what I'm suppose to cherish...I'm loving the breezy air of winter...I may not see the sun shining....I may be irritated with the weeping clouds...but hey I think I'm regaining the things that I once lost...Now I'm happy to say that I almost found myself...almost...and I'm getting there somehow...
Life is a group of happy and sad memories...It's a simple yet complicated story...
...ako lang at wala na pong iba....
nag-uumpisa na namang mangulit sa friendster,
Betchang :-D
Pagmumuni-muni....
Her charm works all the time...She looks at me and I'd just smile back and then we'd start to laugh...I look at her and she just stares at me...I wink and then she would suddenly rolls her eyes over...and then we'd burst out laughing...
I miss the two lovely ladies in my life...( feeling ko kasi hindi ako lady--hehehe) I miss my mom and of course my sister ( who I think by the way is having the time of her life--hehehe). I miss the early morning talks that we all used to have all together...no boys...it's just us 3 wonderful ladies...
Well I'm not that "so" sad...as a matter of fact I think I'm happy...Dad is being reunited with his family after 6 long years...Mom's finally seeing grandma for the first time since she set her foot here...My sister is having her beauty goals at the tips of her fingers(--hehehe...o secret na...ikumuzta mo ko kay vicky belo ngarud ok...hehehehe- tas padalhan mo ako nung hair remover sa kilikili ha--hahahah).
I was hesitant at first...Everything wasn't organized but hey listening to them over the phone laughing...smiling...and simply narrating excitedly about their blah...blah...blahs... made me realize that maybe this was the right thing to do...
I miss them all tremendously...but I'm happy though that they are happy...:-D
Daddy...Mommy hindi ba talaga ninyo ako anak at lagi na lang ninyo ako iniiwan...Sinusundan ko naman kayo...pero lagi kayong lumalayo...Ading pakihanap yung mga adoption papers ko dyan sa bahay ha....padala mo sa akin ng may pruweba nga ako....hahahhaha....
Well...
Nagpapakasenti na nakangiti,
Betchay :-D
I miss the two lovely ladies in my life...( feeling ko kasi hindi ako lady--hehehe) I miss my mom and of course my sister ( who I think by the way is having the time of her life--hehehe). I miss the early morning talks that we all used to have all together...no boys...it's just us 3 wonderful ladies...
Well I'm not that "so" sad...as a matter of fact I think I'm happy...Dad is being reunited with his family after 6 long years...Mom's finally seeing grandma for the first time since she set her foot here...My sister is having her beauty goals at the tips of her fingers(--hehehe...o secret na...ikumuzta mo ko kay vicky belo ngarud ok...hehehehe- tas padalhan mo ako nung hair remover sa kilikili ha--hahahah).
I was hesitant at first...Everything wasn't organized but hey listening to them over the phone laughing...smiling...and simply narrating excitedly about their blah...blah...blahs... made me realize that maybe this was the right thing to do...
I miss them all tremendously...but I'm happy though that they are happy...:-D
Daddy...Mommy hindi ba talaga ninyo ako anak at lagi na lang ninyo ako iniiwan...Sinusundan ko naman kayo...pero lagi kayong lumalayo...Ading pakihanap yung mga adoption papers ko dyan sa bahay ha....padala mo sa akin ng may pruweba nga ako....hahahhaha....
Well...
Nagpapakasenti na nakangiti,
Betchay :-D
Just Happy...yup...I'm happy alright!
I'm in the mood to start over...:-D
Now...well...well..well...Mark Logan made my day...There's something in that youtube.com that made me laugh all week long...sigh!?! I'm just happy that I'm not sad....I'm happy that I'm not crying...I'm happy that I'm not bored...I'm happy that I'm pre-occupied...I'm happy that I'm not experiencing any visual hallucinations ( yeah...shhhh....i see dead people around-hehehe)...I'm so thankful that "I'm not hearing any voices"--( no hindi pa po ako nababaliw--weheheheheh)...I'm just extremely ok i guess...panu nakita ko na naman si lloydi at ngayon pati si echo nakijammin' na din...
Mark Logan you made my day...I really love that "hataw health"...I'm looking forward to watching him with his news team again...hehehe...
Iba talaga pagmay TV patrol...patrol ng Bayan...Ika'y napapangiti...napapanganga at napapalundag sa kakatawa...*wink :-D
Now...well...well..well...Mark Logan made my day...There's something in that youtube.com that made me laugh all week long...sigh!?! I'm just happy that I'm not sad....I'm happy that I'm not crying...I'm happy that I'm not bored...I'm happy that I'm pre-occupied...I'm happy that I'm not experiencing any visual hallucinations ( yeah...shhhh....i see dead people around-hehehe)...I'm so thankful that "I'm not hearing any voices"--( no hindi pa po ako nababaliw--weheheheheh)...I'm just extremely ok i guess...panu nakita ko na naman si lloydi at ngayon pati si echo nakijammin' na din...
Mark Logan you made my day...I really love that "hataw health"...I'm looking forward to watching him with his news team again...hehehe...
Iba talaga pagmay TV patrol...patrol ng Bayan...Ika'y napapangiti...napapanganga at napapalundag sa kakatawa...*wink :-D
ahhhh....ang hindi matapos tapos na ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
kala ko nagbago ka...
Subalit sa aking palagay...
Ganyan ka na talaga...
Wala na akong magagawa...
Siguro sadyang ganyan ka na...
Hindi ka na magbabago...
Kahit ano man ang gawin at sabihin ko....
Hay! Nakakalungkot...
Sana hindi na lang ako ito...
Hay naku nayayamot na naman ako...
Nagsesenti na naman ba...
Hindi naman mejo naalangan na...
Mahal pa ba kita...
Ako ba'y napapagod na....
hay naku iha....ano ba talaga...
ewan ko..
basta alam ko
malapit nang matapos ang bagyo...
Kailan!?!
--well abangan...
Subalit sa aking palagay...
Ganyan ka na talaga...
Wala na akong magagawa...
Siguro sadyang ganyan ka na...
Hindi ka na magbabago...
Kahit ano man ang gawin at sabihin ko....
Hay! Nakakalungkot...
Sana hindi na lang ako ito...
Hay naku nayayamot na naman ako...
Nagsesenti na naman ba...
Hindi naman mejo naalangan na...
Mahal pa ba kita...
Ako ba'y napapagod na....
hay naku iha....ano ba talaga...
ewan ko..
basta alam ko
malapit nang matapos ang bagyo...
Kailan!?!
--well abangan...
After Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Moment :-D
Sometimes you just need to get mad with the world in order to love ourselves...I'm done with the aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh thing (again for the nth time)...I'm smiling sweetly...
Ngayong umaga pinagmamasdan kita...
Tila may lungkot ang iyong mga mata...
Sa tuwing ako'y nangingiti...
Bakit ganoon...ikaw naman ay nalulungkot at napupuno ng pighati...
Maraming mga bagay ang hindi ko maintindihan...
Marahil magkaiba ang ating kinalakihan...
Napakaraming mga katanungan...
Nasaan ang mga kasagutan...
Siguro nga nasa tabi-tabi...
Sana nga lang wala sa mga sabi-sabi...
ah basta...
Ngayon ako'y masaya...
Hindi ko mawari kung bakit...
Ah basta...SADNESS -- MI ULTIMO ADIOS...
HAPPINESS -- BIENVENIDO!!!
Ngayong umaga pinagmamasdan kita...
Tila may lungkot ang iyong mga mata...
Sa tuwing ako'y nangingiti...
Bakit ganoon...ikaw naman ay nalulungkot at napupuno ng pighati...
Maraming mga bagay ang hindi ko maintindihan...
Marahil magkaiba ang ating kinalakihan...
Napakaraming mga katanungan...
Nasaan ang mga kasagutan...
Siguro nga nasa tabi-tabi...
Sana nga lang wala sa mga sabi-sabi...
ah basta...
Ngayon ako'y masaya...
Hindi ko mawari kung bakit...
Ah basta...SADNESS -- MI ULTIMO ADIOS...
HAPPINESS -- BIENVENIDO!!!
happy...
I'm blessed to have a second home... Kaiser Permanente, San Jose, California...
I thought I was just one of the many who is very interested of being employed in a company known for its name...but I found more than what everybody else wanted...Yes...I found "ME"...now I can say that...I'm ALMOST HOME!!!
I'm just so blessed...Thank you Heavenly Father...Everything indeed has a perfect reason...
I thought I was just one of the many who is very interested of being employed in a company known for its name...but I found more than what everybody else wanted...Yes...I found "ME"...now I can say that...I'm ALMOST HOME!!!
I'm just so blessed...Thank you Heavenly Father...Everything indeed has a perfect reason...
Something That I can Relate to...I have to be a Coffee...:-D
A touching story from a wonderful friend...thanx ate aileen...
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its in side became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?
Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?
Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your
past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying...
A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up, She was tired of fighting and struggling. It seemed as one problem was solved, a new one
arose.
arose.
Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil; without saying a word.
In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl. Turning to her daughter, she asked,'Tell me what you see.'
'Carrots, eggs, and coffee,' she replied.
Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg.
Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, 'What does it mean, mother?'
Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity: boiling water. Each reacted differently.
The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its in side became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.
'Which are you?' she asked her daughter. 'When adversity knocks on your door, how do you respond? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
Think of this: Which am I? Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?
Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a death, a breakup, a financial hardship or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?
Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean actually changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you. When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest do you elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity? Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?
May you have enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human and enough hope to make you happy.
The happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes
along their way. The brightest future will always be based on a
forgotten past; you can't go forward in life until you let go of your
past failures and heartaches.
When you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling.
Live your life so at the end, you're the one who is smiling and everyone around you is crying...
At 1:30 in The Morning :-D
I miss their smile...their laughters...and all the things that we all used to do...
Since we've been in Cali, it's so hard to build bridges, find new friends and look for new ways for us to grow socially...Somehow we miss our "Olney" ( Illinois) life, where itw's all about wonderful friends and the four seasons...
We miss having group dates, we miss our weekend parties, we miss our once or twice a month out of town group vacations, I miss the girls and their "kikay" thoughts, I miss our shopping sprees and our picture taking days...Sigh!
Cali is such a complicated place...It's filled with life...but unfortunately I think it's also an empty and isolated space...Family members are near yet they all seemed to be so far...In Olney all that we could share were mouthwatering foods, crunchy gossips, warm hugs, true smiles and sincere thoughts and laughters...On the other hand Cali is filled with sad and bitter thoughts...
I want to be happy...I want to be free of these unwanted thoughts...I want to look at somebody's eyes and feel that Life indeed is short, simple and happy...
Well...I'm happy...I've been happy...and I will forever be happy...( sarap ireiterate anoh)...well let me repeat that: I'm happy...I've always been happy and I'll be forever happy...yes...I'M HAPPY...I'VE ALWAYS BEEN HAPPY AND I'LL FOREVER BE HAPPY...
hmmm...matulog ka na naning ko...puyat ka lang...alas dos na ng umaga ...hwag nang mangulit at magpakaloka-loka...hehehe
ang masaya at laging nakatulala,
eh cnu pa nga ba...
syempre wala na pong iba...
Betchang
Since we've been in Cali, it's so hard to build bridges, find new friends and look for new ways for us to grow socially...Somehow we miss our "Olney" ( Illinois) life, where itw's all about wonderful friends and the four seasons...
We miss having group dates, we miss our weekend parties, we miss our once or twice a month out of town group vacations, I miss the girls and their "kikay" thoughts, I miss our shopping sprees and our picture taking days...Sigh!
Cali is such a complicated place...It's filled with life...but unfortunately I think it's also an empty and isolated space...Family members are near yet they all seemed to be so far...In Olney all that we could share were mouthwatering foods, crunchy gossips, warm hugs, true smiles and sincere thoughts and laughters...On the other hand Cali is filled with sad and bitter thoughts...
I want to be happy...I want to be free of these unwanted thoughts...I want to look at somebody's eyes and feel that Life indeed is short, simple and happy...
Well...I'm happy...I've been happy...and I will forever be happy...( sarap ireiterate anoh)...well let me repeat that: I'm happy...I've always been happy and I'll be forever happy...yes...I'M HAPPY...I'VE ALWAYS BEEN HAPPY AND I'LL FOREVER BE HAPPY...
hmmm...matulog ka na naning ko...puyat ka lang...alas dos na ng umaga ...hwag nang mangulit at magpakaloka-loka...hehehe
ang masaya at laging nakatulala,
eh cnu pa nga ba...
syempre wala na pong iba...
Betchang
Talking...Talking...smiling...smiling...and finally laughing...laughing...and talking again...:-D
The rain finally stopped...I found an umbrella that is huge enough to shield me from the stormy rain...and just a few hours ago...the rain finally stopped...the rain finally stopped...can you believe that...tapos na halos ang ulan...but the thing is I'm not really that sure if I've seen the last of it...
The rainy days made me feel so lost...It made me shiver...It made me cry for hours...It made me feel so alone...It made me feel that I had nobody...It made me regress to the extent of having that fetal position all night long...It made me sit at the corner far from the others where no one will notice that I somehow exist...
Now I can say that I'm smiling again...:-D...I'm dressing up again...surprisingly I'm wearing my red lipstick again....I've never had a red lipstick on for a very long long time...and I must say I've miss it so much...and best of all I'm eating and drinking good food again...I'm inhaling and happily exhaling...hindi mabaho ang simoy ng hangin ngayon...hindi puro "utot" ang naamoy ko....hehehe...o ayan nagpapatawa ka na ulit...oo natatawa na ako ulit...and finally I'm glad to hear my own laughter again...
It's a brand new day...get well naning ko...yah...I'll be fine...don't worry it's not swine...it's just a simple flu and it's curable by red wine...I'm not really good at writing words that rhyme...
Ah basta ibig ko lang sabihin...HELLO WORLD...I'M HERE AGAIN...AND I'M READY TO BE A PART OF YOUR CHAOTIC BUT HAPPY WORLD...
The rainy days made me feel so lost...It made me shiver...It made me cry for hours...It made me feel so alone...It made me feel that I had nobody...It made me regress to the extent of having that fetal position all night long...It made me sit at the corner far from the others where no one will notice that I somehow exist...
Now I can say that I'm smiling again...:-D...I'm dressing up again...surprisingly I'm wearing my red lipstick again....I've never had a red lipstick on for a very long long time...and I must say I've miss it so much...and best of all I'm eating and drinking good food again...I'm inhaling and happily exhaling...hindi mabaho ang simoy ng hangin ngayon...hindi puro "utot" ang naamoy ko....hehehe...o ayan nagpapatawa ka na ulit...oo natatawa na ako ulit...and finally I'm glad to hear my own laughter again...
It's a brand new day...get well naning ko...yah...I'll be fine...don't worry it's not swine...it's just a simple flu and it's curable by red wine...I'm not really good at writing words that rhyme...
Ah basta ibig ko lang sabihin...HELLO WORLD...I'M HERE AGAIN...AND I'M READY TO BE A PART OF YOUR CHAOTIC BUT HAPPY WORLD...
The girl by the window....
I was browsing on my profile and suddenly I just had the urge to click on the "horoscope" icon and guess what...it just said:
Cancer
Connecting with others is key but not as important as connecting with yourself.
...I guess I need to get in touch with my self more....I've had lots of things on my mind lately but unfortunately I couldn't get myself to type in the words and let the emotions go....
I thought I was able to set these negative thoughts free...but then again I'm just but human...Sigh! ...ang hirap palang maging tao....you get into this crazy world...and before you know it you end up being as crazy as it is...
The clouds are heavy again... :-( ...Parang kahapon lang the sun was shining...the girl by the window is sighing helplessly...She's showing-off her pretty smile just the other day...she was happy...she was confident...she was full of life...she was the girl that she used to know...and now...she's sitting by her window...pondering on things that she can't understand...She's drinking her hot chocolate...Her head is pounding hard...She's trying to overcome somethings that she has to face...She's in her melancholic mode....She's sipping through her coffee mug...It's really relaxing...Her cute night gown is showing off her magnificent inner beauty...and suddenly she's smiling...Her eyes are dry now...Her nose isn't as red as last night...Her eyes are slowly showing off her optimistic view about life...Somehow she has the feeling that she'll be fine...she's trying to reach out for her journal...She's searching for her favotite pen...she's trying to put her sad thoughts into writing...after this she knows she'll be fine...She'll forget about those tears...soon enough she'll be able to put these unwanted feelings aside...when she's done writing...she'll close her journal...and tomorrow...she'll forget about what happened the day before...she'll be out again...driving the world as crazy as she is....
It's hard to be human...It's so hard to keep up with our emotions sometimes...But I'd say: life can be hard but most often than not you'll say with the smile over and over again...Ang ganda ng buhay... :-D
Must Know...
I guess this will help us understand men better...
:-D
The Man Rules
Finally , the guys' side of the story.
( I must admit, it's pretty good.)
We always hear " the rules"
From the female side....
Now here are the rules from the male side.
These are our rules!
Please note.. these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!
1. Men are NOT mind readers.
( FIRST & FOREMOST RULE)
1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.
1. Sunday sports, It's like the full moon
or the changing of the tides.
Let it be.
1. Crying is blackmail.
1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!
1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.
1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do.
Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.
1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become Null and void after 7 Days.
1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.
1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one
1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.
Not both.
If you already know best how to do it , just do it yourself.
1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during commercials..
1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.
1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have no idea what mauve is.
1. If it itches, it will be scratched.
We do that.
1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like nothing's wrong.
We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle..
1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, Expect an answer you don't want to hear.
1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine.... Really ..
1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as Football
or Hockey.
1. You have enough clothes.
1. You have too many shoes.
1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!
1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;
But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.
The Perfect Dancing Partner
I've been watching for more than an hour. I can't help but adore these wonderful ballroom dancers...My mouth is widely open...My eyes are quite glued on tv...and I wondered...could it be the amazing costumes? Could it be the lovely shoes? Could it be the tasteful body movements? Or is it the connection between the 2 dancers that made me love these magical show...
I think it's the shoes...or is it the make-up...I'd say it would be the legs...but hey what makes ballroom dancing fascinating is the great connection between the 2 dancers...There's this movie quote that I really like which states, "it's really hard to find the perfect dancing partner"...The music will always be there...The designer clothes will always be bought anywhere...The eye catching shoes will always be purchased through any store that we can find...but the relationship that these 2 people have can barely be seen if they are paired with somebody else....I guess that's the definition for the "PERFECT DANCING PARTNERS"...having said this, I'd say that this is so true in looking for that "perfect life long partner"...
There will be a lot of wonderful shoes out there...There will be so many beautiful clothes to choose from...You can always recreate the perfect facial final finishing make-up touches but without the perfect dancing partner everything will be useless... We can never recreate the perfect romantic scene without that perfect prince charming...
It's easy to look for a dancing partner...but it's really hard to look for someone that would make you utter the words..."YUP....HE'S THE ONE ALRIGHT!"...
sigh!?! :-D
I think it's the shoes...or is it the make-up...I'd say it would be the legs...but hey what makes ballroom dancing fascinating is the great connection between the 2 dancers...There's this movie quote that I really like which states, "it's really hard to find the perfect dancing partner"...The music will always be there...The designer clothes will always be bought anywhere...The eye catching shoes will always be purchased through any store that we can find...but the relationship that these 2 people have can barely be seen if they are paired with somebody else....I guess that's the definition for the "PERFECT DANCING PARTNERS"...having said this, I'd say that this is so true in looking for that "perfect life long partner"...
There will be a lot of wonderful shoes out there...There will be so many beautiful clothes to choose from...You can always recreate the perfect facial final finishing make-up touches but without the perfect dancing partner everything will be useless... We can never recreate the perfect romantic scene without that perfect prince charming...
It's easy to look for a dancing partner...but it's really hard to look for someone that would make you utter the words..."YUP....HE'S THE ONE ALRIGHT!"...
sigh!?! :-D
:-D
I said to myself that I will try very hard not to open my friendster profile for two weeks to prepare myself for my upcoming "THIS IS THE MOMENT" and "THIS IS THE TIME OF MY LIFE" event...Unfortunately I can't help myself...I had to peak even for a just a few minutes...call me an addict...an insanely friendster addict but I really don't care...I just have to write...write...and write...
My horoscope just said, "On the domestic front, your life might not be exciting, but it's stable and it's better than it has been in a long while. Let everyone else keep searching for their happiness. You've already found yours." Have I really found my "happiness"...My life had been an endless "drama" since I got here...I would always whine...and whine...and whine...I was very hopeful to get my life back...and I felt that I failed not just once...not just twice but zillions of times...
I felt so lost for a very long time...I've been clinging so hard to this, "once upon a time" story...I thought I'd never have my "happily ever after" but fortunately it was there all along...I just never realized that it was embracing me all along...sigh!?!...Sometimes we'd look too far for the things that could make us happy...We'd always think that life itself is a massive and chaotic puzzle but in reality the puzzle isn't that hard nor that tricky for us not to enjoy...
Life is just full of unending couldve's, shouldve's and wouldve's... but then again I'll just let my destiny take me to where I am suppose to be...I guess I'm now ready to know who I was really meant to be...The Lord will show me the way...
My memory lane is just too wonderful to forget...But I guess there's no route that could ever lead me back to my wonderful past...Soon I'll learn to move on...and someday...I'll be able to smile and say..."I AM WHO I AM...AND I'M HAPPY TO SAY THAT I AM WHERE I AM DESTINED TO BE"....
My horoscope just said, "On the domestic front, your life might not be exciting, but it's stable and it's better than it has been in a long while. Let everyone else keep searching for their happiness. You've already found yours." Have I really found my "happiness"...My life had been an endless "drama" since I got here...I would always whine...and whine...and whine...I was very hopeful to get my life back...and I felt that I failed not just once...not just twice but zillions of times...
I felt so lost for a very long time...I've been clinging so hard to this, "once upon a time" story...I thought I'd never have my "happily ever after" but fortunately it was there all along...I just never realized that it was embracing me all along...sigh!?!...Sometimes we'd look too far for the things that could make us happy...We'd always think that life itself is a massive and chaotic puzzle but in reality the puzzle isn't that hard nor that tricky for us not to enjoy...
Life is just full of unending couldve's, shouldve's and wouldve's... but then again I'll just let my destiny take me to where I am suppose to be...I guess I'm now ready to know who I was really meant to be...The Lord will show me the way...
My memory lane is just too wonderful to forget...But I guess there's no route that could ever lead me back to my wonderful past...Soon I'll learn to move on...and someday...I'll be able to smile and say..."I AM WHO I AM...AND I'M HAPPY TO SAY THAT I AM WHERE I AM DESTINED TO BE"....
The Wink*
I'm listening to "ate kulasa's mp3 music on her profile and I just can't help but to write again...I really love the song...It's making me smile...and it reminds me of someone I know...
I've read her blog...and the ever searching question lingers : Can ex-lovers be friends?
I remember how he looked at me...It made me feel that I was a very pretty girl (despite the spiked hair, and the ala-manang look--hahaha)...The way he gazed at me made me feel that forever his eyes will be glued on me and yes on me alone...I still can recall how he would listen intently to every word that I say...it's as if we were indeed made for each other...:-D...There are times that you miss the old feeling of being important to someone...We just had so many memories together...Highschool had been fun I guess because you have somebody to argue with...You had somebody who would not simply agree with you and your nonsense "as-a-matter-of-fact" ways....In highschool I had somebody who'd tell me that my best wasn't enough...and with these arguments I did grow up into the person that I am now....then college made us realized more that life wouldn't be as complete as when we had each other to share our adventures with...I miss those letters that made me feel that he was near though he was far...I miss those semestral breaks that would lead us back into each other's arms...I miss those long talks that we used to have over the phone...and I really miss those once in a blue moon moments when we can just simply sit together talking and talking about anything under the sun....
...But those days are over...Now we've realized that things have changed...he is no longer that gleeful boy who sat infront of our teacher's table who keeps on gazing at his four-eyed "girl" at the back of the class...We've come to realize that we had more...
...Now whenever my life is in disarray I'd run to him for comforting words and he never failed to make me smile...The friendship that we have is something that I'd love to cherish for the rest of my life...We may not have ended up together but we had more than what we wanted...We had our happy separate lives yet we never had regrets of having that beautiful story...
hay naku nadadala na naman ako sa kanta...hehehehe....ate kulasa ang ganda kasi...sigh! *wink*
I've read her blog...and the ever searching question lingers : Can ex-lovers be friends?
I remember how he looked at me...It made me feel that I was a very pretty girl (despite the spiked hair, and the ala-manang look--hahaha)...The way he gazed at me made me feel that forever his eyes will be glued on me and yes on me alone...I still can recall how he would listen intently to every word that I say...it's as if we were indeed made for each other...:-D...There are times that you miss the old feeling of being important to someone...We just had so many memories together...Highschool had been fun I guess because you have somebody to argue with...You had somebody who would not simply agree with you and your nonsense "as-a-matter-of-fact" ways....In highschool I had somebody who'd tell me that my best wasn't enough...and with these arguments I did grow up into the person that I am now....then college made us realized more that life wouldn't be as complete as when we had each other to share our adventures with...I miss those letters that made me feel that he was near though he was far...I miss those semestral breaks that would lead us back into each other's arms...I miss those long talks that we used to have over the phone...and I really miss those once in a blue moon moments when we can just simply sit together talking and talking about anything under the sun....
...But those days are over...Now we've realized that things have changed...he is no longer that gleeful boy who sat infront of our teacher's table who keeps on gazing at his four-eyed "girl" at the back of the class...We've come to realize that we had more...
...Now whenever my life is in disarray I'd run to him for comforting words and he never failed to make me smile...The friendship that we have is something that I'd love to cherish for the rest of my life...We may not have ended up together but we had more than what we wanted...We had our happy separate lives yet we never had regrets of having that beautiful story...
hay naku nadadala na naman ako sa kanta...hehehehe....ate kulasa ang ganda kasi...sigh! *wink*
LoSt...
It's a cloudy day...I'm hugging my pillow close to me...I'm curled up...I wanted to cry but I guess I don't have any tears left to shed...I feel so lost...I couldn't figure out my purpose anymore...
...and then I looked outside my window...the trees are swaying their magnificent branches...they're dancing to the beat of an unheard melody...then came the birds...they seemed to be so proud of knowing what direction to take...the streets are busy again...I've seen several cars in a hurry to pass by...I've seen some sweet couple jogging side by side...I bet the bus that just stopped accross the street is half full again...aghast!!! Everybody knows their life's purpose except me...:-(...this day will be longer than any other days...and then after several hours of staring at the tv screen I've noticed that my pillow is already soaked from all of these senseless tears...
I want to escape reality for awhile...I want to be in a different place where everything is possible...I want to be in a place where I can play the piano and hum the songs that I used to sing...I want to sing at the top of my lungs and join the band that plays the unheard music...I want to share my life with people who needs me...I want to fill the void in somebody else's life...I want to make somebody else smile...I want to be a shoulder to cry on...I want to give a medicine that could take away all of the pain...
Siguro kailangan mo lang maligo iha...makulimlim ang paligid...subalit hindi yan sapat upang baguhin ang hindi kaakit-akit na amoy ng hangin...oist...nangiti xa...
I know I'll be able to get through this...The Lord is good...He never fails listen...Life is beautiful...when the crazy storm ends there will always be a magical rainbow...yes the sun will always shine after the rain...:-D
...and then I looked outside my window...the trees are swaying their magnificent branches...they're dancing to the beat of an unheard melody...then came the birds...they seemed to be so proud of knowing what direction to take...the streets are busy again...I've seen several cars in a hurry to pass by...I've seen some sweet couple jogging side by side...I bet the bus that just stopped accross the street is half full again...aghast!!! Everybody knows their life's purpose except me...:-(...this day will be longer than any other days...and then after several hours of staring at the tv screen I've noticed that my pillow is already soaked from all of these senseless tears...
I want to escape reality for awhile...I want to be in a different place where everything is possible...I want to be in a place where I can play the piano and hum the songs that I used to sing...I want to sing at the top of my lungs and join the band that plays the unheard music...I want to share my life with people who needs me...I want to fill the void in somebody else's life...I want to make somebody else smile...I want to be a shoulder to cry on...I want to give a medicine that could take away all of the pain...
Siguro kailangan mo lang maligo iha...makulimlim ang paligid...subalit hindi yan sapat upang baguhin ang hindi kaakit-akit na amoy ng hangin...oist...nangiti xa...
I know I'll be able to get through this...The Lord is good...He never fails listen...Life is beautiful...when the crazy storm ends there will always be a magical rainbow...yes the sun will always shine after the rain...:-D
YUP...be free to say anything...
SAY BY JOHN MAYER
Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems
Better put ‘em in quotations
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Walking like a one-man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you'd be better off instead
If you could only
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Say what you need to say
Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You better know that in the end
It's better to say too much
Than never to say what you need to say
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say (repeat to fade)
Lost...
It’s a cloudy day…I’m hugging my pillow close to me…I’m curled up…I wanted to cry but I guess I don’t have any tears left to shed…I feel so lost…I couldn’t figure out my purpose anymore…
…and then I looked outside my window…the trees are swaying their magnificent branches…they’re dancing to the beat of an unheard melody…then came the birds…they seemed to be so proud of knowing what direction to take…the streets are busy again…I’ve seen several cars in a hurry to pass by…I’ve seen some sweet couple jogging side by side…I bet the bus that just stopped accross the street is half full again…aghast!!! Everybody knows their life’s purpose except me…:-(…this day will be longer than any other days…and then after several hours of staring at the tv screen I’ve noticed that my pillow is already soaked from all of these senseless tears…
I want to escape reality for awhile…I want to be in a different place where everything is possible…I want to be in a place where I can play the piano and hum the songs that I used to sing…I want to sing at the top of my lungs and join the band that plays the unheard music…I want to share my life with people who needs me…I want to fill the void in somebody else’s life…I want to make somebody else smile…I want to be a shoulder to cry on…I want to give a medicine that could take away all of the pain…
Siguro kailangan mo lang maligo iha…makulimlim ang paligid…subalit hindi yan sapat upang hindi mo baguhin ang hindi kaakit-akit na amoy ng hangin…oist…nangiti xa…
I know I’ll be able to get through this…The Lord is GREAT…He never fails to listen…Life is beautiful…when the crazy storm ends there will always be a magical rainbow…yes the sun will always shine after the rain…:-D
…and then I looked outside my window…the trees are swaying their magnificent branches…they’re dancing to the beat of an unheard melody…then came the birds…they seemed to be so proud of knowing what direction to take…the streets are busy again…I’ve seen several cars in a hurry to pass by…I’ve seen some sweet couple jogging side by side…I bet the bus that just stopped accross the street is half full again…aghast!!! Everybody knows their life’s purpose except me…:-(…this day will be longer than any other days…and then after several hours of staring at the tv screen I’ve noticed that my pillow is already soaked from all of these senseless tears…
I want to escape reality for awhile…I want to be in a different place where everything is possible…I want to be in a place where I can play the piano and hum the songs that I used to sing…I want to sing at the top of my lungs and join the band that plays the unheard music…I want to share my life with people who needs me…I want to fill the void in somebody else’s life…I want to make somebody else smile…I want to be a shoulder to cry on…I want to give a medicine that could take away all of the pain…
Siguro kailangan mo lang maligo iha…makulimlim ang paligid…subalit hindi yan sapat upang hindi mo baguhin ang hindi kaakit-akit na amoy ng hangin…oist…nangiti xa…
I know I’ll be able to get through this…The Lord is GREAT…He never fails to listen…Life is beautiful…when the crazy storm ends there will always be a magical rainbow…yes the sun will always shine after the rain…:-D
A Short Story about Life
Life is so short...but everything is just so ironic...I saw an old friend today...When we met a year ago she was this girl who is field with life...She's one of the very few who is so enthusiastic to see the world...and now she just lost her hair...her puffy cheeks that I used to admire are almost losing it's grace yet she manages to smile...
It's just so ironic...
Some people wanted to live long yet they are the once who'd go before those who wanted to end their lives ASAP...This girl had so much life...She's always filled with laughter...She's always out there sharing her wonderful stories about life...and yet now she's fighting hard to survive the harsh battle with the big "C"...
Keep on hanging there my good friend...Somehow I know you'll be able to make it through...God bless and get well soon....
It's just so ironic...
Some people wanted to live long yet they are the once who'd go before those who wanted to end their lives ASAP...This girl had so much life...She's always filled with laughter...She's always out there sharing her wonderful stories about life...and yet now she's fighting hard to survive the harsh battle with the big "C"...
Keep on hanging there my good friend...Somehow I know you'll be able to make it through...God bless and get well soon....
One Saturday Morning
It had been a very busy week. It was Friday and everything was just in the way...We had an argument the night before and in the early morning he simply sent me a message stating that "life is darn so hard"...I did not have a good night sleep...He too kept on turning and tossing all night long...but when I got his message I called him and tried hard to comfort my betterhalf...
...and I think I somehow I heard him smile...sigh!!! Few hours later I sent him a text message, " hi there! why don't we go out of this busy town this weekend...let's escape reality even for just a few hours"...he texted back, "I like that"...and later that afternoon it seemed as though the night before never existed...he kissed me...and I kissed him back...I embraced him...and he squeezed me so tight that it seemed as though we never had those "oh so tight hugs" for such a very long time...and then we smiled...shared some breath taking old memories...and then we laugh hard...so hard that after some time we were breathless...and then we gazed into each others eyes and suddenly we were in tears...tomorrow will be a very exciting day...
Come Saturday morning, we were excited somehow but it was a lazy lazy lazy Sabado morning! But we promised that we'll escape reality for awhile...and so we hopped into our baby "KIWI" and suddenly we uttered the words, "we're going to Monterey"...While we were on our way we turned on the radio and listened to various kinds of music then we found ourselves singing along with "The Fray" (You found me...you found meh....)...and then we listened intently with "Carrie Underwood's" Jesus take the wheel and we agreed that we both love the song...etc.etc.etc. and we came to realize that yes!?! we do have something in common...
We went to see the beach...It was magnificent...We were silent for awhile...He was busy with his own thoughts and I was so busy with mine as well. And then we sat there staring at the glorious sight...It was heavenly...It was undeniably beautiful. And then we both managed to take deep breaths...and finally we uttered the words...It's a very beautiful day...and after a few more hours we finally said "tara uwi na tayo"...
This had been one of the very few days that I would like to last forever...It's just one of the very rare moments that I would like to remember for the rest of my life...We had a lot of pictures taken...but I would like to remember the story behind those meaningful smiles...
Yes indeed...LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!
...and I think I somehow I heard him smile...sigh!!! Few hours later I sent him a text message, " hi there! why don't we go out of this busy town this weekend...let's escape reality even for just a few hours"...he texted back, "I like that"...and later that afternoon it seemed as though the night before never existed...he kissed me...and I kissed him back...I embraced him...and he squeezed me so tight that it seemed as though we never had those "oh so tight hugs" for such a very long time...and then we smiled...shared some breath taking old memories...and then we laugh hard...so hard that after some time we were breathless...and then we gazed into each others eyes and suddenly we were in tears...tomorrow will be a very exciting day...
Come Saturday morning, we were excited somehow but it was a lazy lazy lazy Sabado morning! But we promised that we'll escape reality for awhile...and so we hopped into our baby "KIWI" and suddenly we uttered the words, "we're going to Monterey"...While we were on our way we turned on the radio and listened to various kinds of music then we found ourselves singing along with "The Fray" (You found me...you found meh....)...and then we listened intently with "Carrie Underwood's" Jesus take the wheel and we agreed that we both love the song...etc.etc.etc. and we came to realize that yes!?! we do have something in common...
We went to see the beach...It was magnificent...We were silent for awhile...He was busy with his own thoughts and I was so busy with mine as well. And then we sat there staring at the glorious sight...It was heavenly...It was undeniably beautiful. And then we both managed to take deep breaths...and finally we uttered the words...It's a very beautiful day...and after a few more hours we finally said "tara uwi na tayo"...
This had been one of the very few days that I would like to last forever...It's just one of the very rare moments that I would like to remember for the rest of my life...We had a lot of pictures taken...but I would like to remember the story behind those meaningful smiles...
Yes indeed...LIFE IS SO BEAUTIFUL!!
Nagngitngitngit...hehehe...
...Sometimes the best way to win an argument is to nod your head and say yes...because the more you talk the more damage that you're about to make...kaya just flash that smile out...and simply nod your head...at the end of the day your unquiet mind tells you that somehow you have all the reasons to believe that you know better anyway...:-D...
StRiKe 2!!!
The glass is half way full...It's hard to take in the words sometimes....I don't know if she can still hold on...The blow is hard...she's striking for the 2nd time...and this time the blow just hit her bad...can she still wait for strike 3 before she gets to fight back...the odds are just agaisnt her...she's willing to give him up...one more strike...just one more strike and he'll give him back...sigh!?!
:-C
:-C
The 10 Wacky Days of August
They were all strangers packed in one room...Others tried to smile...Others would simply throw some "shy glances" to someone close by...Others would simply sit quietly looking at their notes...Our first day was one heck of a day...Some came from their noc shift duties...Others were really exhausted from driving for almost 2 hours just to get there...
As the days passed by we became comfortable with our "new" place...Shy smiles turned into wacky jokes and loud laughters....Shy glances turned into sharing of mouthwatering snacks and lunch boxes...Sitting quietly all alone turned into sitting next together with somebody sharing personal informations...exchanging cellphone numbers...friendster and facebook usernames and of course the ever so popular yahoo messenger addresses...
10 days passed by so quickly...It ended so soon...I'll miss getting up early in the morning to catch up Dr. Martin's class...I'll miss having a hard time finding a perfect parking spot...I'll miss sitting next to the wacky Mrs. Friendship Manay Gina...I miss Manay Dina's mouthwatering meals...I miss the fun filled laughter that I and Manay Cherry would share each day...I miss the shy glances given to me by Blessy...I'll miss the "loud voices" of Kuya Joseph, Kuya Ronald and Joy...I miss the friendly gestures of Estella....The funny but cute jokes of Lyndon...
[gallery]I can go on and on...but of course what I'll miss best is the inspiring words that Dr. Martin would always give us at the end of every lecture...sigh!?!I'll miss the 10 wacky days of August...I've survived it but the great challenge is still yet to come....Wish me luck...
Kumusta?
Posted on September 22, 2009 by betchy8814.
Categories: Uncategorized.
Simpleng salita subalit nakakapagbigay ngiti…Isang salita lamang siya subalit bakit ganun ang malungkot na mundo ay tila napupuno ng pagbati…Bakit ganun parang mas masarap magsulat kapag malungkot ka…Kapag ika’y masaya ang hirap humanap ng mga salita na siyang magbubuo ng magandang kwento na puno ng kuwenta…Kapag ika’y masaya mahirap hagilapin ang magagandang larawan na siyang pwedeng magtanggal ng mga pang-agam-agam…Subalit pagmalungkot ko pansin mo ang lahat…pansin mo ang simoy ng hangin …ang tunog ng plawta sa kabilang bayan…ang malamyos na tinig ng kausap mo na tila kumakanta…Pag malungkot ang sarap magmuni-muni…ang sarap magsulat at higit sa lahat masarap magbahagi ng kung anu-ano…Ah basta masarap magsulat kapag mejo senti ka…
Halika tara…samahan mo ako sa aking pagmumuni-muni…tulungan mo akong bumuo ng mga lipon ng salita na syang mag-uugnay sa kwento mo at kwento ko…
Hay naku…sa ngayon masaya ako…subalit nais ko lang talagang magsulat ng kung anu-ano…
O sya, hanggang sa muli nating pagmumuni-muni…
Categories: Uncategorized.
Simpleng salita subalit nakakapagbigay ngiti…Isang salita lamang siya subalit bakit ganun ang malungkot na mundo ay tila napupuno ng pagbati…Bakit ganun parang mas masarap magsulat kapag malungkot ka…Kapag ika’y masaya ang hirap humanap ng mga salita na siyang magbubuo ng magandang kwento na puno ng kuwenta…Kapag ika’y masaya mahirap hagilapin ang magagandang larawan na siyang pwedeng magtanggal ng mga pang-agam-agam…Subalit pagmalungkot ko pansin mo ang lahat…pansin mo ang simoy ng hangin …ang tunog ng plawta sa kabilang bayan…ang malamyos na tinig ng kausap mo na tila kumakanta…Pag malungkot ang sarap magmuni-muni…ang sarap magsulat at higit sa lahat masarap magbahagi ng kung anu-ano…Ah basta masarap magsulat kapag mejo senti ka…
Halika tara…samahan mo ako sa aking pagmumuni-muni…tulungan mo akong bumuo ng mga lipon ng salita na syang mag-uugnay sa kwento mo at kwento ko…
Hay naku…sa ngayon masaya ako…subalit nais ko lang talagang magsulat ng kung anu-ano…
O sya, hanggang sa muli nating pagmumuni-muni…
Nagmumuni-muni…
Posted on November 8, 2009 by betchy8814.
Categories: Uncategorized.
Ang mundo’y umiikot…
Kaya huwag malikot…
Baka sa susunod…
Ikaw naman ang mahulog…
Categories: Uncategorized.
Ang mundo’y umiikot…
Kaya huwag malikot…
Baka sa susunod…
Ikaw naman ang mahulog…
After the Rain…
Posted on March 7, 2010 by betchy8814.
Categories: thinking out loud.
I looked up in the sky and suddenly I saw how magnificent the sun is…The storm is almost over…I feel a teardrop falling down my cheeks…The sight is overwhelming…there were children running along everywhere…the birds are humming again…and the wonderful sky…my own sky…is as blue as I could hardly imagine…
The storm is almost over…a new chapter is about to begin…a new set of wonderful stories is about to be shared…Finally the storm is almost over…Finally I can start to appreciate the sun after the rain…
Categories: thinking out loud.
I looked up in the sky and suddenly I saw how magnificent the sun is…The storm is almost over…I feel a teardrop falling down my cheeks…The sight is overwhelming…there were children running along everywhere…the birds are humming again…and the wonderful sky…my own sky…is as blue as I could hardly imagine…
The storm is almost over…a new chapter is about to begin…a new set of wonderful stories is about to be shared…Finally the storm is almost over…Finally I can start to appreciate the sun after the rain…
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