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I said to myself that I will try very hard not to open my friendster profile for two weeks  to prepare myself for my upcoming "THIS IS THE MOMENT" and "THIS IS THE TIME OF MY LIFE" event...Unfortunately I can't help myself...I had to peak even for a just a few minutes...call me an addict...an insanely friendster addict but I really don't care...I just have to write...write...and write...

My horoscope just said, "On the domestic front, your life might not be exciting, but it's stable and it's better than it has been in a long while. Let everyone else keep searching for their happiness. You've already found yours." Have I really found my "happiness"...My life had been an endless "drama" since I got here...I would always whine...and whine...and whine...I was very hopeful to get my life back...and I  felt that I failed not just once...not just twice but zillions of times...

I felt so lost for a very long time...I've been clinging so hard to this, "once upon a time" story...I thought I'd never have my "happily ever after" but fortunately it was there all along...I just never realized that it was embracing me all along...sigh!?!...Sometimes we'd look too far for the things that could make us happy...We'd always think that life itself is a massive and chaotic puzzle  but in reality the puzzle isn't that hard nor that tricky for us not to enjoy...

Life is just full of unending couldve's, shouldve's and wouldve's... but then again I'll just let my destiny take me to where I am suppose to be...I guess I'm now ready to know who I was really meant to be...The Lord will show me the way...

My memory lane is just too wonderful to forget...But I guess there's no route that could ever lead me back to my wonderful past...Soon I'll learn to move on...and someday...I'll be able to smile and say..."I AM WHO I AM...AND I'M HAPPY TO SAY THAT I AM WHERE I AM DESTINED TO BE"....